The remaining words in the above sentence are: is fairly non-existent right now!
I am rounding out my second month in Brazil and, despite my six hours of lessons a week, still feel a very long way from being able to speak the local language.
I have definitely learnt a lot since I arrived and do understand a lot more of what I hear (but that is not saying much, when I arrived I mistook some people at the airport with strong US Southern accents for Brazilians speaking Portuguese!) but I am not even close to having the confidence to construct sentence of my own. And the conversations that I do need to have in Portuguese (in shops, restaurants, with my poor doorman) are still as difficult as ever.
I think what is making it tough is that I have never set about learning a language before (apart from some high school French) so have absolutely no frame of reference to assist me with how I should be studying and practicing, what level I should be at, how quickly I should be picking things up etc etc.
In terms of the studying and practicing, one of my (slightly irritating to other people!) traits is that I must always do things in an efficient manner. Nothing irritates me more than inefficiency in situations… it doesn’t take much additional thought to do something more efficiently so why not make the effort and save time in the long run! As a result, I become quite frustrated when trying to revise my Portuguese as I have no way to know whether the techniques I am using are worth the time I am investing or whether there is a better way to be doing things.
And in terms of getting a gauge on how I am progressing, my natural inclination is to compare with myself with other expats I am meeting over here. This is proving to be quite depressing as most of the expats I know here are from Europe, already know more than one language and are therefore picking it up at a rate of knots – I’m talking two months in and holding conversations in meetings at work! So depressing!
As a result of all this, I am generally feeling quite suffocated by the need to learn Portuguese at the moment. I feel like my morning lessons are coming around faster and faster each week and when I am not in a lesson I am either studying or struggling to have a conversation.
I just hope that once I get some more routine in my week , as all the relocation-type daily tasks slow down, I will be able to relax into my Portuguese a bit more and see the learning as more of a hobby than a chore. I am also hoping that all the reassurances I get from my colleagues such as, ‘don’t worry you will get there’ and ‘one day it will just click’ are based on some kind of infallible scientific proof and that that one day is not far around the corner!
Here are some of my current study techniques – children’s books, wall charts, text books, flash cards and re-writing out key words to name a few…..!